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The End

November 29, 2010

It pains me to say that this is the end of the road for me…and this blog.  My intention in starting it was as therapy.  A place for me to come and vent my frustrations, record my journey and find support from others with similar struggles.  Fortunately for me, I found wonderful support from all of you out there who followed along.  It reminded me that I wasn’t alone and that meant the world to me.  I am now two months into my motherhood journey.  Baby B is all I could have ever hoped and dreamed she would be.  We’ve had our little struggles while getting to know each other but we are persevering.  The days are busier and I have little time to come here now.  When I do have free time, I continue to follow YOUR journeys…cheering silently for those who are still fighting the fight and smiling and laughing with those who are embracing motherhood.  This blogging community saved me when I needed to find my sanity. 

Each day, I remind myself of lucky and blessed I am to have a beautiful, healthy daughter and a supportive and loving husband.  I am in love with our family.  I hope that you are in love with yours too.


The Birth Story

October 18, 2010

Better late than never…

Friday, October 1st, Mr. B and I checked in on L&D at 6:00 am.  The nurse started my IV and drew labs.  At 8:00 am, Dr. OB arrived and broke my water.  Low dose Pitocin was started.  Fortunately for me, Dr. OB gave me the clearance to get the epidural ASAP, so the nurse pre-loaded my with fluids and called Anesthesia for the hook-up.  And can I tell you, the Anesthesiologist got there just in the nick of time because my contractions had gotten so strong that I was crying with each one of them.  I commend all of you out there who went the natural route, but not this girl.  I wanted my drugs!  After the epidural, the nurse re-checked me and I was 5cm.  Ten minutes later, I was 7cm.  I couldn’t believe how fast my labor was progressing, especially since I was a first-timer.  By 12:00 pm, I was 10 cm dilated and ready to push.  After a couple of pushes, the nurse said we needed the baby to come down a little further.  She sat me up in bed to help things out.  An hour later, we started pushing again.  Dr. OB showed up about halfway through.  I pushed for a full hour but Baby B couldn’t get passed my pelvic bone.  She was also facing upwards (sunny side up) which made it harder for her to be delivered.  Dr. OB gave me a break and said he would come back at 4:00 pm to try pushing again.  I pushed for another hour but Baby B couldn’t make her way through.  Dr. OB tried the vacuüm but was unsuccessful.  Dr. OB said he gave up and it was time to move to the OR for a C-section.  At that point, I was too tired to care or be scared about the surgery.  I wanted to meet my daughter!  So, at 5:44pm, Baby B was born via c-section.  She weighed 8# 3oz and measured 20 inches in length.  It was the most incredible experience ever.  Mr. B and I were in love with her from the moment we saw her!

Since I basically had a vaginal and c-section, my recovery has been really rough.  I was in alot of pain from swelling down below along with discomfort at  the incision site.  I apparently had the start of pre-eclampsia on Friday cause my BP was high throughout the labor and remained that way after delivery.  I also had extreme swelling of my face and legs after delivery too.  After 5 long days in the hospital, the three of us went home.  My first semi-decent day related to the pain and swelling was 6 days later.  My mom stayed with us because I still needed help caring for myself, nevermind caring for Baby B.  She and Mr. B made a great team taking care of the both of us.  They were both a God-send.  Mr. B has been incredible throughout the entire ordeal.  Because of my inability to care for Baby B in the first few days, he had to learn quickly.  After the first day in the hospital, he was an old pro with feedings and poopy diapers.  He still is an enormous help to me even today and loves Baby B with all of his heart.  Seeing him with her makes me love him even more than I thought possible.  Night time remains a challenge for all three of us but it’s seems to be getting better as each day passes.

Baby B had lots of swelling to her scalp because she couldn’t make it through my pelvis while I was pushing.  As a result, her poor little head took a beating.  She had really bad caput over the entire back part of her head along with a bruised neck and two scalp lacerations.  Her face was also really puffy after delivery too.  Because of the birth trauma, Baby B developed and elevated bilirubin level and needed phototherapy during our hospital stay.  Her levels weren’t low enough on the day of discharge so the Pediatrician sent us home with a bili-blanket.  Mr. B and my mom took her to the lab every morning for bilirubin levels and we finally got to discontinue the bili-blanket on that Friday.  By two weeks of age, Baby B’s head swelling completely resolved along with all of the swelling and bruising to her poor little face.  Besides all of that, she is a good baby.  She eats 3 ounces every 3-4 hours and sleeps well.

Needless to say, it’s been busy around here between my recovery and Baby B’s jaundice issues but we’re hanging in there.  Despite all of it, I still can’t believe this precious child is really mine and I am savoring every moment with her. 


Here She Is…

October 15, 2010

I’m still working on the birth story.  My goal is to have it posted by the weekend.  It’s amazing how little free time you have once a newborn enters your life.  I find myself forgetting to eat meals and grab sleep when I can.  Mr. B has been truly amazing since Baby B’s arrival.  For never having held a baby or fed one, he got thrown to the wolves in the hospital and has been amazing ever since.  He is the most wonderful father and absolutely adores his little princess.  As I watch him with our daughter, I fall more in love with him.  I am truly the luckiest girl in the world.  I just look around my house and feel happy and complete.  Here’s a picture for you.  Introducing Baby B…

And here’s one more…

She’s Here!!!

October 6, 2010

I apologize for posting so late.  The last few days have been quite the journey.  I couldn’t be happier to announce that the birth of our daughter took place on October 1, 2010 at 5:44pm.  Baby B weighed in at 8 pounds, 3 ounces and measured 20 inches.  We are finally home and doing better.  In the next few days, I will post the birth story and pictures with all of the details.  Unfortunately, the delivery wasn’t as easy as I hoped it would be…but we’re both on the mend.

Breakdowns and Babies

September 29, 2010

Sorry I’ve been MIA lately.  I’ve just been so tired and a little cranky.  I didn’t post after last week’s routine OB appointment cause I had a bit of a breakdown and just didn’t feel up to it.  Everything was fine but Baby B decided to sleep through her NST which put me over the edge.  I started crying and fearing the worst but she got really rowdy towards the end and made me feel better.  All my other stats were on target.

Well, yesterday’s appointment was more of the same.  I spent the morning spotting so I figured things were brewing up in cervix land.  Fortunately, Mr. B accompanied me to the appointment for moral support and I’m so glad he did.  Weight, urine and blood pressure were all fine and Baby B’s heart rate was in the 140s as usual.  But, again, she decided to nap during the NST.  The freak-out ensued and I think I scared the nurse.  Dr. OB came in to reassure me that the baby was fine but I wasn’t buying it.  He checked my cervix and determined that I’m 3cm dilated and 70% effaced.  Through my tears, he offered to send me to L&D for more monitoring to reassure me.  I gladly took him up on the offer.  Mr. B and I arrived to the unit and got hooked up to the monitors.  Baby B was way more active which made me feel alot better.  Turns out, I was also contracting every 5 minutes.  We stayed there for about 2 hours.  Afterwards, Dr. OB came and said it was OK for me to leave, returning for bleeding, stronger and more consistent contractions or water gushes.  The new plan is to report to the hospital on Friday morning at 6:00 am for induction since I’ve already started things on my own…unless I go into labor naturally between now and then.  BirthDay should be Friday!  Dr. OB said after I get admitted on Friday, he’ll break my water, hook me up with my epidural and let it ride.  For some reason, he’s quite confident it won’t take long and I sure do hope he’s right.  Until Friday…

We Have a Date!

September 13, 2010

I had my routine appointment with Dr. OB today.  All is well with my belly measurements, urine and blood pressure.  Baby B passed the NST with flying colors again.  My blood sugar is fine and things are moving right along at 36 1/2 weeks.  My induction is scheduled for the evening of September 30th (I’ll be exactly 39 weeks).  That date was chosen cause Dr. OB is on call just in case things go quicker than expected.  So, for now, it looks like Baby B’s birthday will be on Friday, October 1st…unless she decides otherwise.  If I was a betting girl, I’d say October 1st will be the day.

Full Service Appointment

September 7, 2010

Today, I headed back to Dr. OB’s office for a complete work-up.  Mr. B left work early to come with me.  We started the afternoon with an ultrasound which was sort of anti-climactic.    Poor little Baby B is so cramped that we could only see pieces and parts of her.  She’s head down and facing my spine so we couldn’t see her little face.  The tech measured everything she needed to and everything looked great.  Next, it was off to start the NST.  After about 20 minutes, Baby B passed with flying colors.  My blood sugar numbers have been good on the Metformin but Dr. OB tweaked my dosage anyway.  He answered all of my questions, filled out my maternity leave paperwork and swabbed me for GBS.  Last but not least, I got the good ole cervical check and…NADA.  ZILCH.  It’s like Fort Knox up there.  He did say Baby B’s head is down low so at least that’s in my favor.  My next appointment is on Monday.  We’ll get another NST and choose an induction date!  Yippeeeee! 

Things have gotten very uncomfortable for me as of late.  It really feels like Baby B is gonna puncture my lung or break a rib.  She tap dances into my rib cage all day long which sends my back into spasms.  It’s not so fun.  Nevertheless, it seems like I’ll have about 3 more weeks to go unless she decides otherwise.  If I was a betting woman, I’d say she’s staying put until the induction.  That’s all I’ve got for now.  Everything is ready for her arrival.  All we need is her safe and sound.